Tired and Angry

I am tired and angry of the continuous curveballs that my health or the lack of it throws at me every single day. No matter what I do to manage it, something new creeps up and throws me off the loop again. I am tired and angry of the pain the lack of sleep going…

Priceless #Facepalm!

G & I were discussing tonight’s dinner and the convo went something like this: Me: I have a craving for Indo-Chinese, can you make it? G: I wish you had told me around lunch what you felt like for dinner, I would have been mentally prepared. Me: I didn’t have that craving at lunch as…

When your concern for my chronic FM pain shows up as frustration

#ThisIsChronicIllness #InvisibleIllness In the last 10 years that I have been living with FM, I can positively say that I have heard/seen the gamut of reactions about my life with pain……disbelief, shock, encouragement, concern, feeling of being resigned, anger, frustration and finally impatience. The frustration shows up as a borderline rude question: “will you ever say…

September is Pain Awareness Month

September is Pain Awareness Month in the U.S. and I thought I would post some interesting facts you might not know about chronic pain in our country. A Nation in Pain ~ The Facts More than 100 million American adults struggle with chronic pain. This is more than those with diabetes, heart disease and cancer…

Resting Pain Face and Meditation

This blog post by Emily Suess is great, I had to share. I think Resting Pain Face is real and I know I suffer from it, lol! Like many with fibromyalgia, I have been trying to use meditation to encourage a state of calm in my life. And I should be honest with you, after…

Article: 3 Reasons Why An Invisible Illness Is More Dangerous

Invisible illnesses can indeed be more dangerous than visible ones. This recent article posted on the Huff Post, articulates how an increased risk of suicide, judgement and prejudice from others and finally, a lack of research funding, puts those of us with invisible illnesses in danger. Read the full article here:  3 Reasons Why An Invisible…

Parenting with Fibromyalgia

Amma, why don’t you come to all my baseball games?, Amma, why do you sometimes stay back in the room when we are on vacation? Amma, why did you sit out the hike after our kayaking trip?…………..these are some of the many varied but similar themed questions my boys ask me. My answer is always…

FM…..analogized

Christmas lights in July🙂 I can hear ya thinking…..what is she talkin about? It’s not even halloween yet and she is already thinking of Christmas….well I am not thinking of Christmas but the aches and pains that make me feel like someone has turned on the twinkly lights in my body. I have always used…

You Are Enough

“Let whatever you do today be enough. Let go of the judgement you have about what you should be or could be doing, and today, allow yourself to simply be. Comparing yourself and your journey may be habitual, but it gets you nowhere. It makes you feel worse and it keeps you stuck. So stop…

Harmonious Performance @ MICCA 2016

Congratulations to the Blanchard Memorial Elementary Band on earning a Gold Medal award today at #MICCA2016. The band has 4th, 5th and 6th graders and they competed against bands from middle school’s and junior high’s from around the region. They have been working very hard since December 2015 and this was a great experience for them,…

The Stigma of Fibromyalgia

The social stigma of fibromyalgia is a hardship that all sufferers have to endure. It can come from doctors, coworkers, well-meaning friends and family. These people base their understanding on outdated medical information, stereotypes and an inability to see our pain. We are told we are lazy, over sensitive, weak, fakers, complainers, attention seekers and…

What Is A Flare?

Last week, I mentioned that I was flaring and I thought it might be helpful to explain what a flare is, for the readers who don’t know. A fibromyalgia flare is described as an increase in pain, fatigue and other symptoms, brought on by stress, illness or some other trigger.  Pain scales are designed to help patient…

Celebrating my pain……..free from FM meds for 12 months

What better way to celebrate being FM meds free, side-effect free, somewhat withdrawal free……….by getting ink’d of course🙂 Those who know me know my struggle with chronic FM pain and also how the cocktail of meds caused so many side effects that I was mostly numb….devoid of feelings. It was exactly a year ago, in Feb…

How I stopped myself from being a World-Class Jerk

Weekends are always crazy and busy……esp. when we all end up sleeping in after a hectic week and a late and fun Friday night, not to mention my pain that keeps me awake. Today was no different, we woke up and it was a typical scene – G & I trying to hustle breakfast and…

Change

Hanging by the rooftop, in the bright sun, they seem like swords or magic wands to some, teardrop gemstones to another, a diamond shining in the sky………..but to me, they are just patiently waiting to melt and flow as water, reminding us that change is slow and might seem difficult but it always takes us forward….

Singsong…..Soulsong….Hitsong(s)!!!

I would like to think that I have a continuous love-affair with songs…so much so that I actually walk around with an original soundtrack in my mind🙂 It might have been the music that got you hooked on to it in the first place but as time goes on…..some lyrics, even if they are in…

Season’s Greetings

As we prepare to enter another new year, another phase in our lives, let’s take some time to look back at the year gone by…..let’s thank for all the good memories, realize that the bad ones are stepping stones to help us emerge as a stronger and better individual. Let’s choose love instead of hate…..and…

Raindrops keep falling on my head

Raindrops on leaves and branches transformed into shimmering crystals, crystals that remind you of twinkling  and glittering christmas lights esp. when the sun hits it. It brightens you up, renews you from inside even if only for a fleeting moment. ‘Cos raindrops are just that, fleeting just like our moments and hence so much dear.

Self (Imposed) Identity

What does identity mean to you and how is it defined? Is it defined by your gender, age, sexual preference, educational and professional qualifications/roles, your personal beliefs or causes you might advocate for or the many hats you wear during the course of a day? Is it a combination of all of the above – a multidimensional…

Kia Ora from Mesmerizing Middle-Earth

They can keep their heaven. When I die, I’d sooner go to middle Earth  ~ George R R Martin.  True that! South Island is made up of truly mesmerizing sights, sights that one would have read in their books filled with magical wardrobes and mirrors. Vast plains – in various shades of green and sometimes brown,…

Change

A flash of brown behind all that green….as they wait patiently for their turn, like many others before them and many more after them. After all, change is inevitable and will bring it with something new, something green and something fresh. Every leaf speaks bliss to me…..fluttering from an autumn tree ~Emily Bronte

Awestruck @ Peter’s Pool, Franz Josef Glacier, NZ

A short and gentle walk from the parking lot (not more than 25 minutes round trip), clicking away pics and WOW, you walk into a quiet and peaceful clearing and presented with what has to be one of the most spectacular views in the world,straight out of a postcard. Peter’s pool is a small kettle…

Behind the Scenes with Asclepias Physocarpa

Nothing to do with one’s psychology, Asclepias physocarpa is the botanical name for what is commonly known as the “Swan Plant”in NZ. This ‘behind-the-scenes‘ plant acts as a host to (a) Swantail Caterpillar (b) Monarch Caterpillar (c) Swallowtail Caterpillar (d) Moths (e) None of the above If you got misled by the name and thought Swantail…

Hark! the Herald Angels Sing

You must learn to hush the demons that whisper, “No one wants to read this. This has already been said. Your voice doesn’t matter.”In the rare moments when the voices finally hush, you might hear the angels singing. ~Margaret Feinberg

Driftwood Stories

Across the lonely beach we flit, One little sandpiper and I; And fast I gather, bit by bit, The scattered driftwood, bleached and dry. The wild waves reach their hands for it, The wild wind raves, the tide runs high, As up and down the beach we flit– One little sandpiper and I. ~Celia Thaxter

10 years (or even more) off….one’s lifetime

1.50 pm: Madam, can you send me a recent picture of your child to circulate? One question that every parent dreads hearing and one that is certain to shave 10 years, if not more, from one’s lifetime. [Imagine a time lapse of events until 1.00 PM] Dawn like any other day, sunny and bright, Vidu and Vish…

Indian (Wo)men at (Wo)rk……#LeanIn to #MakeItHappen

Hmmmm……this certainly takes the cake on the “most difficult topic” I have written about. There are so many players involved and despite all my efforts, I will end up using some of my own life experiences to highlight something and that might (will) end up hurting people inadvertently. But since it is an issue that is…

No one asks for it

Now…….. As she was walking with her other classmates towards the bus stop to get the connection to her hostel, she saw the rowdy gang, all drunk with colored powder (Holi like) in their hand. Her college was celebrating something known as “Bus Day,” which was a free pass for boys to behave as obnoxious…

Happiness is…….

Happiness is…… Waking up early only to find out that it is not a school day and you have all that time for yourself🙂 Enjoying and savoring your morning cuppa Going for a walk on the beach Seeing the most amazing sunset             Observing uninhibited joy Eating chilli-mango on the…

From மெர்சலாயிட்டேன் to not Mersalaayitten

Originally published on Feb 21, 2015 Watched Anegan yesterday  and I must say for a non-Dhanush fan, I liked the slick screenplay, songs, the constant back and forth between various time periods, be it past life memories or an over-active imagination in play. The comedy was light and to the point and the almost-climax when Dhanush mimicks…

Blindside(d)!

Never ever in these last couple of years that I been stuck at the beginning of my blogpost, unsure of how and where to begin……okay let me start with the title – I initially thought that “Sucker Punch(ed)” would be an apt title but realized that sucker punch indicates a sudden, typically a spontaneous, spur-of-the-moment…

If we were abandoned…

Originally posted on Everything Matters: Beyond Meds:
A Facebook status update from the Beyond Meds page: If we were abandoned…if abandonment is an issue for us…the way to start healing is to stop abandoning ourselves. We need to unlearn that. We do that by, in baby steps, learning to trust ourselves. We do it by…

You can’t heal what you don’t feel

Originally posted on Everything Matters: Beyond Meds:
By Nicole S. Urdang M.S., NCC, DHM, Holistic Psychotherapist. Printed with the permission of the author who retains copyright. (first posted on Beyond Meds last year) You can’t heal what you don’t feel Can you imagine a life without one of your five senses? Maybe, but it certainly…

Feel like a kid again (it doesn’t take much….effort, that is)

Snippets from a conversation between a bus driver and a lady: Lady: Sir, my daughter is traveling from Chennai to Bangalore alone. Please drive carefully and make sure she gets down safe. Driver: Seri madam. The daughter in question is not a child or a young woman, mind you but an adult, who is independent…

Documenting (UN)Safe!! Access in Bangalore

A few days back, I happened to watch Bangalore Days, a Malayalam movie that was released sometime last year. I really loved the movie, the characterizations and how one could relate to them, in one relationship plane or another. Of course there was something that bothered me but I couldn’t put my finger on it. So…

Season’s Greetings

To a well remembered past, a joyful present and to new beginnings in 2015. Happy Holidays and wishes for a a magnificent New Year 2015!

Meditating for fish

Dr. Alfred Jones: I wonder if I was genetically programmed to dull ‘pedestrian‘ life. Harriet Chetwode-Talbot: You are very lucky to have a dull pedestrian life Another word for commonplace, dull, routine and something that lacks excitement, a pedestrian life is what most people are scared of, maybe because of the fear of falling into a rut…

Presenting Supernova!

Vidyuth and his friends in the apartment community got together to form a band. This is their maiden performance……. Ganeev on the Vocals, Vidyuth on the Guitar, Prahalad on the keyboard and Anurag on the drums for Boulevard of Broken Dreams – Green Day You can also hear someone cheering the kids in the background by…

Zindagi Gulzar Hai

If you are wondering if this post is going to be a review of the famous Pakistani serial, “Zindagi Gulzar Hai,” it’s not. That said ,it was a good drama with really good actors, Fawad Khan (sigh!) and Sanam Saeed and was very realistic. No panning the camera for an entire 30 minutes around overdressed characters🙂…

To the first man in my life

Yup….my dad! Having a dad like you – a man who lived by example, a supportive and doting husband, a loving father and grandfather and most of all a gr8 friend and confidant…..a gift from up above. Any man can be a Father but it takes someone special to be a dad~Anne Geddes Happy B’day…

Growing Pains!

Every now and then G & I end up reminiscing about the craaazzzy choices that we both have made, our own and collective choices. And usually its me who goes in this trip and drags G along with me🙂 but for the last couple of months, G has been agonizing about some decisions that he took…

Happy B’day to my Sister (in-law)

Thinking of you brings a smile to my face…..is it b’cos of your zest for life….or your attitude…..or is it simply b’cos you are being YOU…..Whatever it is…we love you loads!!! HAPPY B’DAY RATS! HAPPY B”DAY RATS!

Out of Action

      A good friend told me today that these injuries are nature’s way of forcing us to take some much needed break and give others the opportunity to pamper us🙂 For someone like me who is always on the move, the task of staying put for 3-4 weeks seem daunting but I am…

Masks

Masks, some blue, some red, some small, some all-important, some downright funny, some really scary……some similar to the ones we all wear….once ON, we go on our merry way, like actors and actresses in a play….until one day the mask becomes our face! No man, for any considerable period, can wear one face to himself…

Itsy Bitsy Spider

Humanity is like an enormous spider web, so that if you touch it anywhere, you set the whole thing trembling…..Just as John Donne believed that any man’s death, when we are confronted by it, reminds us of our common destiny as human beings: to be born, to live, to struggle a while, and finally to…

Many happy Returns of your Day Vishruth!

Seems like I just held you in my arms! I call you a lion, probably cos you remind me of one🙂 So strong and fiercely protective of your brother, daddy’s pet, probably the only child in the world that I know of who woke up crying ‘Appa,’ trouble maker, rule breaker, heart stealer, one who is not…

Happy Birthday Mom

Today is my Mom’s birthday. She is a very enterprising woman, not surprising considering that she had/has a brilliant career in Sales. Extremely outspoken, friendly and hospitable are some of her shining qualities. I just wanted to take this chance to let you know that I love you a lot. Happy B’day dear Amma!  “My Mother…

This too shall pass!

Happened to read an interview from Ajith on Rediff.com….where he is asked about his reaction to the commercial success of his movies. His response (portions of it): There is a very good saying, ‘this too shall pass’. Those who are going through bad times can think this too shall pass. And those who are going through good times…

I Need A Break

I need a break. A break from the world really. This season, when fall becomes winter, always seems to trigger a little depression and I have to be careful about what I choose to focus on. I don’t see the dark cloud yet, but it is in the forecast. The current climate of things, socially,…

Exercise with Fibromyalgia

I ran across this great three part, YouTube series by Dr. Richard Podell with Dr. Kim Jones, discussing exercise tips for those with fibromyalgia. I found this series helpful, maybe you will too. Segment One  Segment Two  Segment Three  All doctors tell their FM patients to get more exercise, but many of those doctors don’t seem…

Fibromyalgia Awareness #4

My final post for Fibromyalgia Awareness is taken directly from The National Fibromyalgia Association. TEN IMPORTANT FIBROMYALGIA FACTS 1. ALWAYS believe in yourself emotionally and physically.  No one can tell you what you are experiencing is not real!  Fibromyalgia (FM) is a chronic medical disorder just like diabetes, hypertension, & asthma.  While there are still…