It is very easy to lose focus and sight (and sometimes yourself) when invisible illnesses and invisible pain (and fog due to pain meds) takes over your life. You go into a spiral, sometimes into a deep hole and it becomes very difficult to get out of it (literally and figuratively). But you know what, it is ok to feel like that, the key is knowing that you will get out of it, at your own pace, no matter how slow (or fast) that might be.
I am thankful today for my physical therapist Ranjitha who identified that the soreness and inflammation that i am feeling in my back is a fibro flare-up. It is nice when the supposed health issue presents itself to the health specialists so you know it is not all in your mind 🙂
I am thankful today for my kids who have been so excited to see me home for the last 3 days, despite my sickness when they walk in from camp. I am also thankful for their concern and love.
I am thankful today for Rekha who offered to listen to me vent/chat about what I am going through, in spite of having a long day @ work.
I am thankful today for Guru who hasn’t pushed me to open up inspite of knowing that I am at my breaking point and not in the frame of mind to discuss certain things with him.
Last but not least, I am thankful to the higher power, who inspite of throwing curveballs has also given me clarity to identify and observe the fog and mental turmoil that I am in and know that I am in control and that I have the strength to get out of it.
We can always find something to be thankful for, and there may be reasons why we ought to be thankful for even those dispensations which appear dark and frowning ~ Albert Barnes