“We delight in the beauty of the butterfly, but rarely admit the changes it has gone through to achieve that beauty.” ~Maya Angelou



  1. […] Days turn into weeks, weeks turn into months and months turn into years……….and the only constant in my life now is pain, chronic, debilitating, exhausting pain. During my last doc visit, he said that you come under the 25% category of people suffering with chronic Fibromyalgia, cos you did not get it treated at the onset of FM and it will take some time to get better, for the pain to reduce. New symptoms crop up, new meds get added on, new restrictions get imposed…………one flare-up leads to another making me feel like I am stuck in a never ending nightmare. Good days are practically non-existent and anything I want to do requires extensive planning, thinking about every action, how that might/might not affect me, to the extent of breaking every single thing into teeny-tiny steps. I am trying to be as positive as I can be, but self motivation and positive thinking can only go so far………..until pain takes over and the ability to cope decreases. I try to be hopeful and not give into negative thoughts but it is getting difficult with each day. I am tired of the pain, I am tired of putting up a brave/tough front, I just want to break down, really really break down and cry cos I am exhausted. Its like I have been in a cocoon as a caterpillar and not being able to metamorphose! […]

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